Friday, January 23, 2009,11:09 pm
okay, i'm going to apologise beforehand for the things i'm going to post about.
i'm probably clouded by blatant anger and frustration(:
but oh well.
firstly, i'm having the worst sore throat ever):
ohmytian, its really spoiling my mood.
meaning that i cant enjoy all the new year foood):
also, i have to speak up for my dearest laogong shuni
after train-ing home with you tonight, i realised how much i treasure your friendship once again.
and how i'm SO PISSED at what don's done!
seriously seriously, ohmytian.
i want to believe that everyone has a reason for doing what they do.
but seriously, this is really too much.
shuni, you deserve respect and priority and flat out honesty.
not this shitty heck-care, ignorant *beep*-ed up attitude.
i mean seriously, if after a year of being together,
he cant understand your heart, what does that show?
i want to give you the benefit of the doubt don, i really do.
but, HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO HER ?!
seriously, your 360degree change in personality.
ohmygoodness.
come 9feb, i will seriously take a parang and chase your ass down.
i can understand child-like, but you're being straight out childISH.
we're already going 18,
EIGHTEEN.
we're no longer secondary school kids,
no longer emotionally driven and stubborn and blind and unknowing.
no more of your childish antics please.
life is way too freaking short for all this rubbish.
if everything i said means zero to you,
consider this :
is this what you call love?
the one she loves is you.
i spent the bus ride home putting some serious thought into all these.
watching all my friends and their relationships.
it seriously makes me doubt any good comes out of it.
but i believe you pick something up from each one.
experiences earned, lessons learnt.
but failed nonetheless.
i swear, my only string of hope on this is that i'm sure God has someone good in store(:
and then i thought, how do i want to spend the next few years of my life ?
one thing i do know, we're turning 18.
not 13, not even 16.
eighteen.
watching life roll by in school.
in fact, this week alone.
and i realise how childish we all can be (no offense)
letting silly things like rumours and all these crap shape our perceptions and judgements.
getting so self-conscious, petty and defensive.
at the end of the day, it really makes no sense.
and really wastes alot of good time.
whats lost is genuine sincerity and trust misplaced.
hahaha, why not just be authentic and have fun doing it :D
life's a whole lot better man.
even with this horrible sore throat,
i refuse to stop eating new year snacks! :DDDDDDD
today was a really tiring day.
for everyone im guessing.
manprit, sm and gentson just went home and KO.
met sm in the canteen in the morning.
the psycho reached before me luh!
he insisted 9am, but he came at 7am ?!
but he was being so polite and nice. HAHAHA.
maybe he shouldnt sleep more.
it turned out that i thought he'd bring books ,
and he thought i'd bring books.
= no maths today.
no mo qi right ? haha.
then i did some econs while he was watching her from afar.
was supposed to go gyming but i didnt ):
ended up playing a little basketball
( Gentson & i won sm and bk ! *dances )
met manprit, chatted for awhile before the bunch of us went to mac for breakfast.
thanks to manprit, my craving for healthy tau huay was crushed with NUGGETS.
sm was making strange animal noises and just being plain WEIRD.
seriously, after awhile i was just O.O?!
( sm i'm sorry :x )
more drama happened before manprit and i finally left.
then i went to tamp to meet pj, grace and zhengy!
talked and talked and talked.
then pj and i went to zhengy's house to rest.
read some blogs.
pj showed us a really sad blog.
about this girl who lost her boyfriend in NS.
it was really really horribly sad!
can you imagine, no closure to their 4-year relationship.
and people everywhere wallow in self-pity over their minute problems.
lol , anyway! haha.
then went to E!hub to meet jf, pf and jingyang.
nothing much to say. ahahahah.
lots of SUAN-ing.
train-ed home with shuni.
i really love love love the talks with her.
by then, my eyes were seriously hurting.
and i wanted to KO when i came home.
but after our trip, i HAD to blog! lols.
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